Borderline Personality Disorder: My Story

I was short-tempered. Or that’s what my family used to say about me. But since teenage, I had anger management issues and responded impulsively to it. My parents were a victim of my aggression and had tried to be patient with me, but clearly, nothing had worked.

My anger used be uncontrollable and I would break anything and everything that I could find. Cutlery, mobile phones, television set, you name it! I had even physically hurt my parents many times. Anytime I did one of these, I used to apologise to them, saying that I would never do it again, but in the back of our minds, we all knew it would happen again. I knew it was horrible but I couldn’t stop myself. Moreover, I had hurt myself several times and attempted suicide as well.

I would overthink, a lot, making up things in my mind that probably didn’t exist. My relationships with people were going sour and I would burst into tears while watching a comedy movie on Netflix. I went through mood swings for days, giving the silent treatment to my parents, thinking they were the root cause of it.

It took us many years to realise that I needed professional help. I went to Dr. Anjali Nagpal at the Serenity Clinic where I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I was told that my extreme emotions like anger, impulsiveness, self-injurious behaviour and mood swings were because of this disorder.

Honestly, at first, I was in denial. I had always been an angry young woman, so from where did Borderline Personality Disorder came? I was doubtful about getting therapy but I wasn’t exactly the daughter of the year, so I went for it.

Opening up to a psychologist was hard at first, looking at the fact that she was a complete stranger. However, she soon made me comfortable during our sessions and in no time I was revealing my lonely past as a neglected child, blaming my parents for everything bad that had happened to me.

I was craving for closeness but my emotional instability led to isolation. My self-confidence and self-esteem were more than low and my panic attacks made never leave the house. However, my therapist made me believe that I can’t let my fears take over me and I should go out, even if for a few minutes. Her relaxation tips were too a cherry on the cake.

Unfortunately, Bordeline Personality Disorder brings along other mental diseases as well, such as Depression, Substance Abuse, Anxiety Disorder, Eating Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder and other personality disorders. I too have been dealing with depression and anxiety disorder.

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